Week 34 of pregnancy: (being) present, transitioning, and life

As I close out the 8th month of pregnancy, I dig deeper into my Birthing Greatness Process. I can feel the abundance of contractions and the pressure. I know this to be baby’s way of preparing as well. I am not the only one making a huge transition. The baby’s natural instincts are just as powerful as mine. There is a communicative process between baby and me, a developing connection that we will use to help one another through the process of labor and delivery.

I am very MIA from many of my circles of friends and family these days and quite departed from many of my normal routines. At first, this bothered me, especially since so many people want to support and I am such a village girl, always wanting to connect with the community that loves on me and supports me, but I have become unapologetically present with my process and the transition. To explain this better, I find myself having to dive into the deeper recesses of my heart, to expand for the arrival of yet another child. Not that I don’t feel I have the capacity to love another child, but that I had been so long the mother of just my 3 babies, I have closed my heart in around them in an effort to mother them closely and responsibly with a high level of focus and determination. See, once this baby is here, our family dynamic will shift forever. We will no longer be the family of 5 we have been for the last 5 years. I am not the only one who is transitioning. My whole entire family is. I want to be as present with them before this huge transition. To see them, to hear them, to know how they are transitioning and support them as much as possible. Of course, we will still have each other and we will still be the same, but we can help each other to prepare for this change.

I have become obsessed with understanding how this physical birthing process translates or even facilitates the transformations in life that run parallel to bringing life into this world. I started making these connections earlier in my child rearing, having an insatiable craving for the deeper meanings in life, how we can reconnect with our power, and serve deeper in our purposes. The concept and processes of birth is an amazing way to learn ourselves and our potential, to confidently operate in our creativity and power and to understand manifestation.

As I am pregnant, I am keenly aware that I am a vessel through which life incubates and comes to existence in this world. Thinking about that gives me chills. It’s empowering. An unequivocally powerful journey of self discovery. It heightens my creativity and gives me direct and immediate access to the highest and best version of myself, because at every given moment I know there is life forming inside of me. I cannot ever forget. It is a physiological representation of who I am and what I can do in this world simply by being. There’s nothing specific required of me to be pregnant once the process begins. I can enhance the process by being healthy and taking care of myself, but I do not physically go in there to manipulate or assist with the process. It’s happening by purpose, by instinct, naturally. It is the epitome of flow. To know you have purpose and to not have to manipulate or assist in the process of operating in it, but that you can enhance it through obedience, awareness and practicing self care is just so amazing. That’s why I honor my pregnancy and giving birth by learning and applying its powerful process to life in general.

At 34 weeks pregnant, I am focused on bringing baby Earthside and the role I will play in that. I sense that just as the process has been the whole way here, natural, instinctual, and purposeful, it will be just the same. This is mental preparation, taking inventory of what it took to get here. No birthing journey is the same, but the potential and possibility is available to all. To have peace and operate in power is possible for all. I get more and more excited thinking of my evolution through the energy of giving birth. Not just birth to a baby, birth to possibility, purpose, potential, promise… These days I’m overcome with gratitude and grace and relentless optimism. My greatest anticipation is having this baby free of trauma in complete freedom. One of the best gifts I can give my baby.